The Simplicity of Uncertainty

Recently LucyAnn and I were  talking to some friends about how isolating and difficult it has been dealing with the added uncertainty in our lives now, what with not knowing what the side effects of LucyAnn's chemotherapy will be and the timing of those effects. Little things like scheduling social activities, making time to spend with friends, and just being able to plan things in general become a little more complicated. I like the familiarity of sensing some certainty in life, of not wondering when the next shoe will drop.

I mentioned this to a counselor friend and his response was, don't be silly, of course the next shoe will drop, you can count on it, especially in this stage of life. But there's also a lot of beauty and living to be done between and even during the shoe drops.It was a reminder of the simplicity as well as the challenge of living with this uncertainty. As much as I might rage against it, there simply are no guarantees,.I'm beginning to realize that it's time for me to release this illusion and embrace all of it; the beauty and simplicity, before, during and after the shoe drops.